AUGUST ??

I'll begin to be a true human!
well, a true 15yo person i mean.
ya know wut, my life was soooo flat on June and July.

and August ....
I'll join some new club in my new school.
I'll have some test, some heavy school task.

and also some holidays ..
yeah .. holidays ..
I miss it, more than anything ...

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happy birthday to me !!!

im 15 ! wow! it feels like becoming sooooo old :D
good by my nice 14, and welcome 15.

btw, im so thankful for all those sweet wishes ppl gave to me. i love you so much guysss :*

kisses and hugs for y'all, my new family, X4 :)

 first cake?

with iin, a.k.a indra :D 

with audyk ;)

from my new family, X4

i dunno why, they gave me "cheleng". 

btw, i got "cheleng" too last year :D

 i got this on 28 July 

as sweet as the chocolate :D

15, dont be suck please. 
promise me, you will be  more great than my last 14 ;)

afraidness

heyya guys :)

hows your life??
ok, you dont need to answer. i know y'all are always great!

and how about me?

a bit struggling in my heart guys.
passing grade to High School was so suck. It made my blood pressure going increase, increase and increase in every single second.
I do hope my heart beats a bit slow. but my brain refuse, and finally, my sympathetic nervous system works. 

ehem.

im a kind of person who wanna get everything the best, guys.
i wanna reach all my target, i wanna stand up upon you, you and you, and i do hate finding my self crashes down.

so here i am, kinda afraid of facing the abstract future.
im a bit afraid i cant get all i want and makes my self looks more dude. lol

 hell yeah. so weak, so stupid, but its the fact.

oh, what a mess! :D

farewell

heyya :(
kamis yang suram ya? --"
gue kepingin sekolah hari ini tapi sekolahnya jauh bgt, dipisahkan lautan yang dalam dan luassss.
jadi, gue stuck di rumah. pasang headphone dan membaca every single tweet di timeline account gue.
it feels so suck guys! 

hell yeah, hari ini ada farewell party gitu di sekolah gue tercinta. masih ada korelasi sama lautan yang dalam dan luas itu, jadi gue join party-nya dari rumah doang.

ehem ..

apaan sih acara perpisahan sekolahnya?
sekilas tweet yang gue baca sih, acara biasa aja. paling juga band, nyanyi nyanyi, fotoan, ada teater gitu, dan apamungkin gue males ngingetnya.

tapi tetep aja galau baca tweetnya.

gue bukannya kepingin nonton temen gue yang mendadak artis gara gara jadi gitaris, bukan mau nonton temen gue dangdutan iwak peyek, atau mau denger adek kelas gue bawain acara dengan aksen britishnya.

yang bikin galau adalah, kehilangan moment.
gue kehilangan satu moment buat nikmatin acara khas sekolah bareng temen temen gue.
gue nggak masuk ke waktu dan ruang dimana temen temen gue lagi ketawa bareng, dan menikmati atmosfer sekolah di acara itu.
atmosfer yang nggak bakalan ada lagi buat kita. buat gue, dan temen seangkatan, khususnya temen seperjuangan dan seruangan gue selama 3 tahun.

aduhhhhh ...

dan belum lagi soal rindu #halah
jangan rindu deh, alay.
oke, gue ganti dengan kangen.

3 tahun terbiasa sama sama melakukan hal hal bodoh sambil berusaha menjadi semakin pinter.
dan akhirnya kita ujian, dan akhirnya selesai, dan akhirnya jarang sekolah, puncaknya kita jadi jarang ketemu.
gue kangen manusia manusia yang biasanya duduk atau kelayapan jalan jalan di dalem kelas.
gue kangen ketawa bareng mereka.
gue kangen ngegosip bareng mereka
gue kangen nyanyi bareng mereka
gue kangen fotoan bareng mereka 
gue kangen  kerjasama pas ulangan bareng mereka *ups
gue kangen ngejamb............ oke stop.

liat itu kelas, sepi banget. mana penghuninya? menguap?

jadi perpisahan tadi itu mungkin satu moment sebelum yang terakhir gue dan temen temen gue ketemu yang bener bener ngumpul semua. 

moment ngelepas kangen, sebelum gue bener bener jarang ketemu temen seangkatan, ketemu bangunan yang berdiri di jalan pejanggik nomer 5 itu, ketemu ibu dan bapak guru, teacher & sensei. 

tapi guenya gak dateng.

yaudah woles. 

eh, udah 6 jam stuck depan laptop.
mau belajar dolo. tanggal 28 - 29 Mei ini gue Tes Potensi Akademik buat masuk SMA.
emm,
gue minta doanya guys. semoga gue lucky, semoga bisa jawab, semoga LJK gue kebaca scanner dengan baik, semoga lulus masuk ke SMA itu.

k bye readers:)

im struggling, confuse and LABIL.

heyya all ..
hows your life?
great? oh glad to hear that.

and how about me?
poor me, i kinda stand on some random condition, on an ABSTRACT MOMENT, just now.
life running as common, but hell yeah, it feels like i just running without any movement, and i still loss my energy!

time running, and all i do is nothing!
i dont even make a change, do not produce, get, or taking something.
im thinking of everything, with a big energy wasted, but i got no result.
uh!

im struggling, confuse and LABIL.


 ehem, i wanna share a pict

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labil man! im crying over a dark night. bcuz of .................. something

*thats all my "bacot" for tonight. see ya :p 

SO RANDOM, DONT READ !

heyya :)
jadi, kenapa gue di depan dashboard blogger detik ini?
sebenernya gue juga bingung. i have nothing for posting. no idea at all.
jadi?

if I was your BF !

hello world :)

here I am writing for a random post *again :D
8.00 pm, H-5 Final Exam.
k, I guess I still have enough time for writing this silly random post :D
slow slow slow :o

guys, now I kinda in love, kinda fall, kinda fool with BOYFRIEND by Justin Bieber.
gosh! that song is damn awesome!
yeah, the first time i heard that song, i just didnt felt anything. but when i heard it for the second,
oh oh oh!
it feels like i cant breathe well without this song :D *super hiperbola :D

If I was your boyfriend, I’d never let you go
I can take you places you ain’t never been before
Baby take a chance or you’ll never ever know
I got money in my hands that I’d really like to blow
Swag swag swag, on you